Inner Peace 1

A while ago this was posted on the Lightworker activation facebook page.
I love this poem by Saskia Davis, and it opened my eyes to a few things I had been experiencing, and wasn't quite sure if it was good or not.

The Symptoms Of Inner Peace by Saskia Davis

Be on the lookout for symptoms of Inner Peace. The hearts... of a great many have already been exposed to Inner Peace, and it is possible that people everywhere could come down with it in epidemic proportions. This could pose a serious threat to what has, up to now, been a fairly stable condition of conflict in the world.

Some signs and symptoms of inner peace:

A tendency to think and act spontaneously rather than on fears based on past experiences.
An unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment.
A loss of interest in judging other people.
A loss of interest in interpreting the actions of others.
A loss of interest in conflict.
A loss of the ability to worry (this is a very serious symptom).
Frequent, overwhelming episodes of appreciation.
Contented feelings of connectedness with others and nature.
An increasing tendency to let things happen rather than make them happen.
An increased susceptibility to the love extended by others, as well as the uncontrollable urge to extend it.

<<>> If you have some or all of the above symptoms - please be advised that your condition of Inner Peace may be so far advanced as to not be curable. If you are exposed to anyone exhibiting any of these symptoms, remain exposed only at
your own risk.- Saskia Davis

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I'd like to use this oppertunity to look at where I think I am, and where I still need to go.

A tendency to think and act spontaneously rather than on fears based on past experiences.

Now this is one I can honestly say I have not achieved yet. I do think I might be moving towards a place of acting out of my true positive self, but I still have many fears imprinted by past relationships and experiences. I sometimes think one of my biggest challenges in this lifetime is moving past fear.

I have a lot of trouble to make decisions as I have become even more fearful in later years. Recognising this, is probably a first step towards overcoming it. Right now I am trying to act from positive light, and to force myself beyond fear, and to even ignore it a bit. Make myself believe it is only that. Fear. With no reason and no logic behind it.

As you might have noticed Music resonates highly with me. Every now and again I get a reminder of why fear is not good when I listen to the song "Dolphin's cry" by Live

"Life is like a shooting star, it don't matter who you are if you only run for cover, it's just a waste of time"

An unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment.

I have moments of these. Times where I feel light, no matter what chaos surrounds me. I suspect much of the chaos, probably all of it, is created by myself, in order to teach me to find the moments of enjoyment inside the eye of the storm.

Sometimes no Chaos is needed, and I can find enjoyment out of a moment of boring everyday existence. A moment where I look at my Husband, or a moment where I smell my daughters hair.

I would love to feel this continuously, but how do we appreciate moments of peace without moments of non-peace. I guess the secret for me is to find a moment where it is unexpected. It does not come naturally to me, to be happy. So when after a long period of trying to fight my own impulses, and my own inherent negativity, I find myself enjoying a moment in tranquil peace for absolutely no reason other than a spontaneous joy, it is even more precious than consciously sitting down to meditate and search for peace.

A loss of interest in judging other people.

I was most surprised by this symptom. I had been trying consciously to not do this for years, but there's always some part of judgement whenever you think of terms of wrong and right. I have been part of an online parenting forum, since my daughter was a few weeks old. The combination of parenting and the internet tends to bring out the most Judgement in people.

It's so easy to say your way is wrong, and my way is right. In almost every scenario there would be some person to judge by your own standards. By either their action or lack of action. It becomes second nature. Then inevitably, the next step is to judge oneself. That is usually a recipe for depression in my case. We're so much harder on ourselves than others. Well I know I am. So when I started feeling that I just had no desire to contribute to the parenting forum anymore, I realised it might have something to do with this. I just lost interest in the Judgement game. In either needing to judge someone else's actions, or for someone to judge mine.

When we need recognition, isn't that a request for judgement by another? Do we not ask that someone judge us to be right and good, and therefor we feel validated? Why do we need the judgement of another to validate us. I struggle to completely get rid of the need for validation, but for now I have no interest in judging another or being judged.

To be continued.....